My Hot Alpha

I was still in full control but the urge to shift was there. I could feel her clawing at my skin. I had never lost control to her before but there was a first for everything. "Hey". He spoke softly to me his hand resting on the lower of my back.

My eyes connected with his through the mirror. My heart was racing, I could hear how fast it was beating in my chest. She wanted out but I wouldn't allow that to happen.

I never wanted to lose control to her.

"Just breathe baby. Control her. The more you do the easier it becomes".

"I can feel her. She's strong". I whispered.

"You're strong. Remember she is you".

I closed my eyes and concentrated on my breathing. When I opened my eyes again a sigh fell from my lips when they returned to their normal colour. I didn't like that. For a split second I thought I was about to lose control. The power from her, the clawing at my skin. The burning deep within my stomach. I made the decision there and then that I would make the effort and learn more about my wolf.

"I don't like that". I spoke.

"It gets easier I promise". He kissed the top of my head before disappearing into the bathroom.

I couldn't understand one thing. If my wolf wanted to take control she could. So, why hasn't she? I had no idea what I was doing. I still didn't feel like a werewolf.

A sigh fell from my lips. I hadn't been talking much tonight. I would speak when spoken to and make sure I had a smile on my face, but truth was I wanted to go home.

But like always Charlotte had made enough food to feed a village and I wouldn't be rude by going home early. Jake had been talking with his dad a lot tonight. Always hushed voices and lots of different facial expressions. Obviously pack business. But I chose not to listen. I was too busy with my own bizarre thoughts.

"You're quiet tonight sweetheart". Charlotte placed her hand on my arm. "Are you feeling, okay?".

"Will my wolf die?". I had no idea why I said it. It was more an inside thought that slipped out. It also caused the room to fall silent.All content is © N0velDrama.Org.

All eyes on me. The silence was deafening. Pulling my bottom lip between my teeth my eyes landed on Jake. He looked worried. Should he be worried? Was I giving him a reason to be concerned?

"It's just I don't feel connected to her like I believe I should". I had to break the silence even if I was embarrassed by it.