Chpater 352
I froze.
"You're always going to regret not going".
"No". I turned to face him. "I made the decision to stay here. If I wanted to go to Yale I would have. I'm going to shower now".
I couldn't stop thinking about what he said. Was he right? Did I regret staying here? Was it always going to come down to Yale?
A sigh fell from my lips as I squeezed my eyes shut tight.This is property © NôvelDrama.Org.
It was a quick shower. Wrapping the towel around my body I exited the bathroom into our room. He was sat on the edge of our bed.
"I don't want to fight Leah, but I can't do this every day. If you want to go to Yale, then go".
"What are you talking about?". I frowned.
"I don't want you to regret anything, and I know you regret staying here".
"I wanted to go to Yale yes, but I made the decision to stay here for us for you. I don't regret anything".
"You don't act like you made the right decision". He spoke.
Taking a seat on the bed next to him I rested my head against his shoulder. "I don't mean to be off I'm just having a rough few days. I feel like all I do is sit around. I get up and do the same thing day in day out". "Babe-....
"I know it's not going to always be like this but I'm talking about now. I'm fed up, I'm bored. I feel I don't have a purpose".
"But you do have a purpose you're the Luna to our pack".
"I don't even know half of the pack members. You never tell me what's going on you never involve me in anything".
"I didn't think you'd want to be involved". He frowned.
"Seriously?". I got to my feet.
"Look I'm not used to sharing pack business with anyone other than my dad and my Beta. I didn't have you for years so I'm sorry. This is all new for me and I guess I'm just used to handling it by myself". He confused the hell out of me.
"So, you don't want my input?".
He ran a hand down his face before he got to his feet. "I want nothing more than to have you by my side out there but you're not ready, your wolf is not ready".
I didn't know whether to be offended or agree with him. I knew I had a lot to learn about myself and my wolf, but his words stung.
"Okay". I went about the room picking something to wear for tonight.
"Okay?".
"I can't really argue with what you said". Plugging in my hairdryer I sat in front of the mirror. "You should probably go shower".
I had stunned him because I chose not to pick an argument. He wasn't wrong in what he said but it would have been nice if he offered to help get me ready. I wanted to become one with my wolf just like everyone else. I didn't want to be the odd one out. I wanted to take my turn in patrolling the grounds. I wanted to shift and let my wolf run free.
Maybe there was something wrong with me.
And then I felt it.
Her presence.
Catching sight of my refection I pulled my bottom lip between my teeth.
My eyes were icy blue.
My wolf had made an appearance.