Chapter 74
“Chase…. Are you okay? Are you feeling sick or anything?” I asked him as I touch his forehead.
“What?”
I sigh and turn back to cleaning where he just messed up so I can cook another thing.
“You’re acting strange. You don’t have to be nice to me just to cover up the fact that you’re a total jerk” I told him plainly.
“Take back your words..” he said and I laughs.
“You’re a total jerk” I said to him again smiling.
“How about you let the jerk kiss you?” He whispered in my ears and I shivered.
I turn to look at him, surprised of his behaviour which I think is way to much.
Chase holds my cheeks and made me look at him in the eyes.
One thing I can’t resist. Is he trying to manipulate me again? There’s no way I’m going to fall to his dirty tricks again , not after I have build myself up to stop making approach on him.
“Hey! What do you think you’re doing?” I asked him.
But before I can say another word, Chase place his lips on mine and kisses me passionately. There’s no way I’d be able to resist him kiss and so I find myself kissing him back.
Chase broke the kiss and we were both breathing heavily. I bite my lower lips as he looks down at me.
“Let’s go on a date… Uhmm?” He whispered to my ears and then smirk.
I look at him in shock, I was too stunned to say a word!
“Chase… You.. you don’t have to do all these, I understand that you can’t ..” Again! Chase shut me up with another kiss.
“Well, it turns out I’m in love with you. So how about you go on a date? Isn’t that what you wanted?”
I didn’t say a word and all I could do is just to look at him like a lost sheep. I find it hard to believe any word coming out from his mouth, same time I want to believe he meant what he said.
“Chase I….”
“What? You hate me already?!” He said in a deep voice and I could notice he pushed himself back not to yell.All rights © NôvelDrama.Org.
“I don’t hate you” I told him.
Which is the truth, there’s no way I can hate him. I can’t even stay away from him.
“Then what?! Are you really like this? Do you know how long it take me to bring myself to tell you this! After that night.. that night you told me how you feel, I notice I couldn’t stand hurting you… I didn’t want to believe what I feels cause I know you’ll end up getting hurt.”
“Chase stop. What do you mean?” I grab his hand but he slap it off.
“Forget I said this to you. I can’t protect you, if you want me so badly then please stop it. I have a lot of people out there waiting for any opportunity to strike! I don’t deal with you… I can’t protect you and i don’t want you to end up like Juliette.”
“This might come out bad and too sudden, but Calista.. we’re from too different world. There’s no way we can be together,, if you want to stay alive longer.. then put away what ever you feels for me, there will be no us!” He said and turn to leave.
“Chase.. what if I want this? I don’t care if you can protect me or not.. I love you! Isn’t that what matter?” I yell at him.
He turned sharply at me.
“Love?” He smirks.
“You think what you feel is love! Get rid of whatever you are thinking now… Nothing can happen between us” he said.
“Why? Are you really that much of a cowards? Madison didn’t die because you couldn’t protect her! She died because she was the one that was targeted”
“What? You know nothing about Madison and what happened to her!”
“What’s wrong with you Chase! Why are being like this”
“Because you’re driving me crazy! Listen, I’m a Mafia and I deal with bad guys! I kill people everyday! I kill people’s love ones too and I have people who wants to kill my love ones too.. is that what you wanted? To tell with a bad boy like Chase because you think he’s rich and have it all?”
“Chase….”
“Make yourself food and go to bed early. Don’t wait up for me” he said and walk away.
I stood there in tears as I watched him away. Just when I thought we are over everything, it hurts so much to see him like that.
He still loves Madison and still want to continue blaming himself for her death.
He is scared someone else he loves is going to end up like Madison and he’ll go over everything again.
I suddenly no longer feel hungry. Who will still be hungry after such words.
I cried my tears and walk out of the kitchen to my room.
Why will he say such hurtful words to me?
Why is he such a coward that be couldn’t even believe in himself… Every single word that comes out from his mouth is just like a sword being pierce into my heart.
I don’t see myself loving him this much and I don’t know when this love happened.
How can a naive girl who wants to live a peaceful life ends up falling In love with a Mafia Boss?
He’s right. He’s a bad boy.
I understand he’s just trying to protect me and just like he said, he kills others too.
There’s no way I can stand watching him kill person but that’s what he does…
I sat on the floor and hold onto my knee. All I ever wanted is just to love a peaceful life, Chase can’t offer me that can he?
But same time, I don’t see myself giving up on him. I don’t care what type of life he lives. All I know is that I wanted to be with him and just him.
I’m ready to risk it all…