Enchanted Love

When we are angry, it can be solved once the anger subsidies. When we are resenting someone, it does vanish away with time with the person’s efforts of apologising. But when we are hurt by ourselves, it is very hard to get back to our happy days again.

“I don’t know what you are up to. But if you want to tell me the same story that you are angry and you don’t want to forgive him, I will slap you” Alina snapped at once, losing her patience.

“I know you more than anyone here. Your anger is not visible anymore and all I see is you are hiding something and I don’t know why you are hesitating.” Alina blurred out as pulled her hair out of frustration.

Clara took a long sigh. Of course, she can’t hide anything from Alina for sure. But will she understand?

“I thought that I would be happy seeing in pain. I thought that I would enjoy his helplessness thinking that he couldn’t save our child. But in turn, I just can’t see him in tears. I wish I could have told him back then so that he doesn’t feel guilty now” Clara’s words made Alina snap her side. This girl is not angry with Alex anymore. Even she is blaming herself for whatever happened.

“I saw how he broke down when he comes to know about my abortion. His tears tore me apart. He was dying each second whenever he looked at me. Why did it turn out like this, Ani?” Clara now sobbed hard as she hugged her friend. Alina massaged her hair to make her say further. It’s just the beginning. Her tiny brain has many more things that have been running inside.

“So, I don’t think you should wait longer to get back to him, right?” Alina asked not to have patience for her to open up more. Alina knew exactly that something is running behind her stupid mind.

“When he expressed his side of the story, I felt I was the reason behind our separation” Clara’s words shook Alina. Why was the table turned entirely upside down?

“When he is continuously taking steps to convince me, I feel like I am not worthy enough to get pampered by him.” Clara couldn’t put the correct words to express her feelings but Alina doesn’t need the exact words as she knew about her in and out.

“I was angry with him for not listening to my side of the story. But I didnt try to explain to him even once after that day. I realised how alone he would have been that day. I realised that in the peak of anger, I was taking revenge for those words which he didn’t even mean.” Clara was now sobbing hard. Alina could understand her absolute pain. This girl takes everything to her heart literally.

“The best part is he is not even mentioning those. He was angry about this alone back then that I left him without even looking back. But he never mentioned that or he never wanted me to feel sorry for that” Clara closed her face in her palm.

“He lost his mom and dad at the same time and I was not there with him” Clara could feel her tears burning all way down her cheeks as she was sobbing hard.

“Why do I have to be like this?” She asked in between her sobs.

“I should have handled this in another way. I let this come to me and to him too. I don’t want him to suffer because of my this attitude. I can’t change my habits for sure. But the least I can do for him is to stay away from him.” Clara’s words were very determined as Alina gasped with the tone she used. It surely tells that she would never change her words for anything.

“I don’t want to hurt him more.” Clara is firm in her decision. She is not like those to prioritise her happiness. At the same time, she won’t sacrifice her happiness just like that. But Alex is like more than anything to her. She can’t hurt him.

“You are overthinking,” Alina replied as she massaged her hair.

“This way, you are hurting both ” Alina helped her lay down on her lap. She doesn’t want to advise her on this matter.

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Everyone came there as they all settled over the dining table. Clara composed herself as she changed her expression expecting Alex to join them at the table.

“We shall leave by evening” Edward announced as all looked at his side with an approving stare.

“Then, let us have our food quickly. Why should we delay this?” Clara asked not to ask about Alex directly. But everyone knew whom she mentioning about.

“Yeah, we almost had it right. Let’s pack our things” Edward replied curtly, eyeing his wife not telling her anything.

Everyone dispersed leaving Clara in a confused state. Why didnt he come for lunch? What happened all of a sudden was that Edward was behaving weirdly with her. And on top of it, what is Alex’s new drama now?

Entering her room, she gasped seeing that Alex’s items were not there. Did he leave the place? But why? The last time when they had a conversation, he was just determined to get her back. What made him suddenly leave the place? Is it his new game plan?

She packed her stuff controlling her sobs. Did he give up already? It’s not that she wanted to get back to him. She is very firm in her decision. But the fact that he left the place, made her sad.

“Uncle is also not here?” Clara asked but Edward chose not to give any reply to her as he kept the baggage inside with a long face.

“Are you angry with me?” Clara asked Edward.

“Angry? The right word would be upset” Edward replied as he hopped inside the car followed by Alina and Jason.

“I am a simple person. I dont complicate my life with anything. And I can’t see my loved ones suffer just because they can’t let things go.” Edward commented once Jason started the car.

“I know that everything that happened was not right and you both have suffered. But can you not let those go and start your life again?” Edward asked with a long sigh.

“Our life is really small and I am sure you will regret your decision one day. In this case, why should I let you do as per your wish?” Edward asked and now Alina is just in awe of his actions. He explained to Clara in very simple language and she loved the way how he is talking calmly. But the thing is Clara is aware of everything and she chose this path by herself.

Clara didn’t reply to him as she turned her gaze to the window side as if she was done explaining to people about her thoughts. Edward sighed tiredly as he thought his direct advice would help her but it is not the case.

*****

That was really a long day. Consoling her parents after they discovered the truth from Alina is really a hell of work. Clara realised that at the peak of her anger, she has hurt many people. She was always in her miseries and never tried to see what other people is going through. But that’s what people always do, isn’t it? Clara never does this but when the pain was unbearable, she chose to shut her heart and mind for anything to get inside.

“Are you coming?” Clara read the message from Alina. Damn, Edward already mentioned that there was a small dinner plan with all. Should she go? Will Alex come there? But does it matter to her?

“I dont know” Clara replied as she snuggled inside her bedsheet, wanting to sleep her worries off. Now that everything is fine, everyone wants her to be back with Alex. She could feel the slightest change in her heart. She wanted to give it a thought. Maybe Alina is right. Maybe she is overthinking. Maybe everything would be perfect if she just forwards her hand towards Alex. The thoughts haunt her as she finds herself grabbing the green dress for the dinner.

Entering the restaurant, she took a deep breath. She decided that she will just let things happen as per God’s wish. Moreover, she needs to see Alex if he is angry with her not. It’s been a week since she met him. He always leaves the home when she comes to treat Frank. She even waited a long one day to meet him but he planned not to meet her at all.

“I thought you were not coming,” Alina hugged Clara with a broad smile. Clara was constantly checking if Alex came or not.

“He also didn’t mention that he is coming or not ” Alina whispered, realising her confused stares.

“Did he decide to move on?” Clara asked Alina.

“Isn’t that what you wanted?” Alina countered back to her as Clara drank the water without answering her.

“Alina, did you check the news?” Edward asked in a panicked state but stopped seeing Clara.

“What happened? Anything serious?” Clara asked tiptoeing to see what Edward is mentioning about.

“Is it about me?” Alex asked as everyone turned their gaze to his side. His dressing style changes drastically and he jelled his hair. It looked as if he wanted to have a change in everything. He has got a new hairstyle too. His little lengthy hair is all gone now which Clara always admire. Military-cut hair made his appearance a hot one. His contrast t-shirt gave a vibe of his mood which is obviously a joyful one.

But nothing caught Clara’s attention as her eyes glued to his right side hand which is not alone for sure.