ALWAYS AND FOREVER

Kathy Pov

“What did you say, Kathy? He has what? I didn’t quite get you the first time and I am sure I heard wrong,”

He said and I shook my head.

“You didn’t hear wrongly Cross, he has them, Louis has our sex tapes,”

I replied in a low voice filled with shame, as I watched his expression change in horror, I knew this was going to happen, I knew he was going to hate me and leave me, I shouldn’t have told him, I shouldn’t have listened to Marilyn or Pearl, I had spoken to Marilyn earlier today and she had said the same thing Pearl had said, they both advised me to tell my husband about it and not give Louis the money he was asking for, not like I had that kind of money anyway, plus the emotional stress had almost cost me, my unborn child, I felt sorry towards my baby for putting her through this much stress, waking up to that discomfort and seeing those drops of blood had been hell for me, I had been so scared that I might has lost the baby and the doctor requesting for a scan after asking me questions had increased that fear, when Cross had called I hadn’t wanted him to be there to hear the bad news but he had insisted on coming, the wait to find out what happened had been hellish, I didn’t want to relive those moments ever again, thankfully our is still okay, and here I am again with another moment I wish didn’t exist, the moment Cross hate me.

“How do you know he is not just talking? Just to get money from you because I know that’s what he wants,”

Cross asked and I kept my eyes down, I didn’t want to look at him and see the disgusted look, I can’t take it.

“He has it, he sent photos and a video,”

I responded shamefully.

“Oh God, you mean he filmed you guys having se…, I don’t even bring myself to say those words what kind of w person were you dating Kathy?”

“I didn’t know he was a horrible person I was a fool,”

I replied, hoping against all odds that Cross will still be with me and wishing he doesn’t request to see the photos.

“Can I have a look at what he sent?”

He asked and my heart leaped in fear, this was it, this was what I was scared of, he was going to hate me, he hasn’t even seen the photos and he can’t look at me again, what more if he sees them? God, I didn’t want any of this, I just want it all to go away, I wanted Louis erased out of my life.

“No Cross, please no,”

“I just want to see,”

“You are going to hate me,”

I whispered, but he stretched his hands requesting for my phone, I had no choice but to give it to him, I opened my bag and handed the phone to him and he silently unlocked the phone

“Where should I look?”

He asked after a moment and I stood up with shaking hands to show him.

“What the fuck?”

He let out when I opened the photos, I wanted to collect the phone from him and throw it away, but he moved away from where I was and went through the rest, I stood rooted there waiting for him to be done, I already knew how this will end his silence was enough proof, this was going to end badly and I am going to be hurt, I shouldn’t have told him, I should have kept it to myself.

“Cross, say something,”

I begged in a tiny voice that could barely be heard, he looked up at me and I bow my head down, I didn’t want to see it, the look of disgust, it will kill me to see him looking at me with disgust.

“Cross?”

“How much is he requesting?”

He asked. That wasn’t the question I was expecting.

“Five hundred,”

“Five hundred thousand?”

“No, Five hundred million,”

I revealed, I already knew his response before he said them.

“What the fuck? Holy shit, what kind of a demon is he? Five hundred million dollars for something he filmed illegally? That’s an impossible sum of money that no one will ever willingly part with, is he even for real?”

He asked, his voice rising with every question.

“I don’t know what to do Cross, I didn’t know I was being filmed, I never thought he could do much to me,”

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He replied, he wasn’t even looking at me, he had his hands over his face, I could feel my fears coming to pass, I could feel him slip away from me with every word.

“Cross,”

I voiced after a couple of minutes with no words said between us.

“Gimme a little time to come to terms with this Kathy, okay?”

He said and hot tears gathered in my eyes again, he needed time? my worst fear was finally confirmed I knew he wasn’t going to come back to me, I knew it, I lost him and it’s all my fault for being so stupid, I am the problem here, I did this to myself.

“Okay,”

I whispered giving in to fate, maybe it wasn’t in my destiny to ever be happy, because every time I think I can be happy something horrible always comes to take my happiness away and just this year, it has happened multiple times still it hurt, it hurt because this time I was at fault, this time my past came to hurt me if only I had listened back then, I laid on the bed when he left and cried myself to sleep, even in sleep everything was horrible, I had a terrible dream where I couldn’t pay Louis the money and he released the photos and videos, Cross divorced me and my parents and everyone I know left me, they couldn’t stand me because of the shame I brought to them, and I couldn’t even blame then, I felt like trash too, it’s looked so real that I cried out of sleep.